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two-time national champion, 2020 to 2024

mma

four years of feedback you cannot argue with.



why fighting

The gym gives you numbers. Fighting gives you something better: a person across from you who knows exactly how the round went. There is no version of talking yourself into believing you did well when you did not, because someone was there, and they know too.

I competed from 2020 to 2024 and took two national titles in that span. What I remember more clearly than either of them is the losses, which I think is how it works for most people who stayed in it long enough to be any good.

what it actually teaches

You do not rise to the occasion. You fall to the level of your preparation. Everybody has heard that; very few people have had it demonstrated on them in front of a crowd. Once it has been, you stop negotiating with your own preparation.

It also taught me to be calm in a bad position, which sounds like a fighting skill and is really a general one. Something is going wrong, you did not plan for it, and panicking makes it worse. The answer is to work the problem from where you actually are, not from where you wish you were.

the overlap with engineering

This is the part people do not expect. It is 2am, something is segfaulting, and the only thing saving you is that you actually understand the memory model instead of hoping. That is the same skill. Preparation you did weeks ago, cashed in at the exact moment you cannot fake it.

Debugging low-level code and fighting have the same shape: no amount of confidence substitutes for having done the work, and the system does not care how you feel about it.